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Sitaram · Site Admin Joined: 14 Sep 2005 Posts: 1079

Being me: Its a dirty job, but someone has to do it.

Some call me pedagogue.

Of course the word pedagogue, in Greek, means a leader of
children. I suppose, with some stretching, it might also be construed
as a leader of the childish.

Sometimes we are mature and other times we are childish, as when we
fall prey to jealosy and sibling rivalry.

Speaking of childhood, I was as I am even as a child. Childhood was a
lonely time for me. In spite of the lonliness and ostracism, I am glad that
I found the courage to be what I am, than to conform to something I am
not simply for the sake of acceptance and the shallow, quid-pro-quo, soon
forgotten friendship which was all that many had to offer.

Speaking of questions and answers: there are certain kinds of questions
which are unique in that those who feel the need to ask them are, ipso
facto, incapable of ever appreciating the answer. Or, perhaps it is simply
the case that they were never sincerely interested in an answer in the first
place, their question being a statement in disguise.

I am what I am. I have little choice. I like what I am. Or rather, I try to
become more like that which I admire. I stand in judgment of no one.
Those whom I admire, I read. Those whom I do not admire, I ignore. I do
not feel the need to apologize for who and what I am and what I do,
though perhaps merely saying this constitutes an ironic apology of sorts,
which reminds me of Plato's Apology. What I am bothers some
people. Jung speaks of the shadow, something which we perceive
as outside of us, but which is really a projection of something inside. Life
is too short for ad hominem, since each hominem is so short-lived,
including this hominem, yours truly.

If anyone cares to join the Sitaram Fan Club, they shall receive a
Sitaram Tee-Shirt and Coffee Mug. Supplies are limited. Allow six
to eight weeks for delivery. (Nota: for the less perceptive, this is a joke,
there is no fan club or commercial enterprise.)

Jorge Luis Borges has a story about a man who spends his life persecuting
an Heresiarch (an heretical Bishop). Finally, he succeeds in getting the
Heresiarch executed. After a few years, he dies, and learns in heaven
that in the eyes of God, both the Heresiarch and his persecutor are
organic parts of a much larger being, and both necessary.

Perhaps someone like me plays a useful role as well. Perhaps my role is
to inspire the criticism of people such as you. These are great mysteries.

Thank you for your time and interest.

Popeye was always saying I yam what I yam and Olive Oil liked
him just fine. Bluto was another matter. Even Jehovah said "I am who
am." I have Popeye and Jehovah on my side. I can't be so bad.

Hypothetical question: If I agree to all you say, and surrender to you,
and convert myself to be exactly as you are, then will you like me better?
Will you become my best friend? What exactly is it that will make you
happy? What would you have me say or do? I am very curious.

I know what I am and I freely admit it. I know that there are only a few
people who like to read me, and a few people who despise me, and a vast
majority who feel total indifference.

Perhaps I feel that I have choice in being other than I am simply because
I see little advantage in being as you are. You must convice me
otherwise. How would you describe yourself? Obviously, you do not
consider yourself pedantic. Please help me. Enlighten me. Save me from
the error of my ways and the terrrible fate which awaits me.

Correction of spelling and grammer is also appreciated.

Nighthawk · Posted: Wed Nov 02, 2005 3:28 pm Post subject:

Hmmm. Well I like you just fine, Sitaram. Keep writing, I'll keep reading.
(Note to N/Hawk: Leave space for editing, if there really is no T-shirt or mug offer : p)

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